Last Time

We just sent Ryan to bed- he has to be at the hospital at 6am for his surgery tomorrow.  He wanted to wear his eyeball leggings, this kid, I tell you.  Such a trooper.  I took a quick picture of him before tucking him in, and I’m not going to lie- it’s killing me to think this is the last photo of 100% of him.  The last time his little body will be intact.  I’m struggling to not wake him up to take a million more photos.

I’m going to miss Ryan’s gorgeous blue eye.  I just hope that the tumors are contained, and once they eye is gone, he doesn’t need any further treatment or chemo.  I hope it ends all his pain and discomfort.  We’ll know once the eye is out and they can get a better look and the pathology results come back what will happen next.

I guess if he’s not scared, then I shouldn’t be either.  I hope he bounces back from this as he always done, with good spirits, and such a loving, sweet nature.  Nothing has kept this boy down so far.

The other day, Ryan said that he wonders what it’s like to see out of two eyes instead of just one.  Just break my heart, kid.  He hopes someday they’ll be able to give him a robot eye.  I hope so too, buddy.







  1. 1

    Awww sweet boy. laura has only ever seen with one. She is fine with it. She really doesn’t know the difference. You are doing the right thing. I know it’s hard though. Love you

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    Good luck tomorrow. It’s amazing how resilient kids are. It says a lot about him that he’s not scared. How long will he stay in the hospital? Just know you have a whole community of people who are virtually holding you up.

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    Thinking of you and Ry-guy today — he is such a strong little man! Hugs mama xoxoxox

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    Devaney Landry says:

    Good luck today! I’ll be praying for you guys!

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    Candice says:

    Sending Ryan all of the positive and happy vibes for his recovery! He’s such a trooper and has so many people who are in his corner ready to cheer him on!

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    Oh bless! My heart just broke when I saw all the pics xxx